First of all, I have to thank each and every one of you who shared your stories and support about my recent experience with the negative reaction to a birth control prescription.
I feel so much better knowing I’m not the only one who has gone through such a difficult time. At the same time I’m deeply saddened that others had to go through the same horrific phase of being out of control of our reactions and emotions. It’s truly a scary and frustrating place to find oneself.
However, I’m happy to report that being on my old prescription already has helped me quite a bit! Yesterday I felt a sense of calm and happiness that I have been missing for a several months. Though I’m still remaining cautious about any “full recovery” back to my normal self, Mr. Lively mentioned yesterday he already feels like I’m back in action.
Which is a good thing, because it’s time to reflect on my 2012 Future Letter and draft my 2013 Future Letter!
For those of you who haven’t followed me year to year, since 2006 I have been drafting Future Letters to myself as a way of creating a vision of what I’d like my year to be filled with – written in past-tense as if I’ve already accomplished my intentions.
I usually start of by writing, “As I see myself walk into this coffee shop in 2013… I see a woman who has done x… learned y… accomplished z… and so forth.”
I take time during the weeks leading up to my letter in December to decide what things I’d like to attempt in the following year and put it all on paper during my Future Letter writing ceremony (and by “ceremony” I mean I’m at a coffee shop typing on my laptop with a warm drink).
This tradition began when I was a college junior coming out of a massive quarter-life crisis which led me to my purpose. At the time, I did not believe that I could accomplish much at all, as I was just getting out of a serious low self-esteem semester. But nevertheless, I wrote my letter from my heart, inking out what I really, really wanted to be and do in the following year.
Though I didn’t re-read or focus too much on the letter itself throughout the following year, I was brought to tears later that year when I re-read the letter and realized how much of what I penned came true. At the time I wrote the letter I didn’t think I could accomplish a fraction of what I laid out, but I ended up manifesting 80% of what I wrote that year.
Since that pivotal moment, I have recognized the power of creating a vision and getting it down on paper. And I’ve written a Future Letter ever since. In fact, this exercise is so powerful, it is also a part of the Life with Intention workshops.
This morning I counted the statements that came true and those that did not come true in my 2012 Future Letter. Again, 56 out of 69 statements came true! That means again I’m batting 81% in my Future Letter predictions and aspirations.
Most of the 13 statements that did not come true had to do with Jess LC, as I did not have a clue when I wrote the letter that I would end up ending the company this year.
This year in particular I realize how much of what happened over the past 12 months was not even on my radar. I had no idea I would elope to Paris, get a puppy, close Jess LC, and launch With Intention. None of that was mentioned in the letter, let alone idea for the Business with Intention workshops we did this year.
I really had no clue what was in store. And while I experienced a lot of stress, frustration, and birth-control induced anxiety/anger/mood swings, I look back on the year now with fondness. It was not an easy year. But that does not mean that it was not filled with love, growth, and humor.
I choose to take those rosy memories with me into 2013.
So while I draft my 2013 letter tomorrow I encourage you to write one as well! Last year someone who wrote a Future Letter mentioned there is a site called futureme.org where you can have your letters emailed to you on certain dates in the future, in case you’d like to review your letter at different points in 2013.
Here’s to a new year and a new Future Letter!