Writing on this blog is one of my favorite parts of my life. I deeply feel called to serve others and this medium feels made for me in so many ways.
Since I started the blog January 19th, 2009, just over four years ago, I’ve devoted as much time as possible during my workday to create compelling content that can help people.
Thankfully, I’ve been fortunate to have a wonderful community who has stuck by me through all the ups and downs of the past four years.
My career and vocation, in many respects, is due to this wonderful support as well.
However, I’ll be honest: lately I’ve been on a bit of an internal roller coaster.
Though there are many awesome projects in the works which I cannot wait to share with you in the coming months, I have sensed an outward focus which is not sitting well lately.
Never before in my career have I felt frustrated by a nagging sense of competition. Though I intuitively know there is enough room for everyone and that things will continue to evolve and change in the industry, this egoic outward focus is clouding my joy.
Further, now that I am focused on service as my success metric, the blog and online world is even more relevant. It not only draws clients my way, but it also allows me to serve simply by writing valuable, helpful content on the blog and WIKW.
In my eagerness to serve and help others through my efforts online, I think I’ve started to inadvertently place my personal value there as well.
Which needs to change.
Because, unbelievably, though I have been serving more people than ever over the past few weeks, I have felt this lingering sense of… lack during the same period.
Though I have great intentions to serve and help others, I need to be completely content in my personal value independent of my level of service – especially online.
My sense of self-worth should not rest on how much I serve others online nor should it rest on my perception of the market.
To help myself rediscover my equilibrium in this area, I am going to take the rest of the week off from blogging and social media, excluding the WIKW topic tomorrow and a new guest series on Friday.
After this post, I’ll respond to current comments and Tweets that I have yet to answer. Then, I will take the rest of the week to devote to the projects I mentioned earlier in the post. I’ll still be consulting and serving my clients as usual, but when it comes to the blog and social media, I’d like to take a bit of a break to go within myself and recalibrate.
I hope is that by taking the time to pause and heal this part of my life paradigm, I’ll emerge more balanced and serve you even better from a place of fullness.
The online world is a wonderful place, but it is best to navigate it with self-care in mind.