About six months ago I asked my gut - for the first time ever – what I should do next with my career as an open-ended question.
I expected to hear something like “more workshops,” “new consulting packages,” or something along those lines. But the answer I received was clear, concise and completely unexpected.
Though I am unable to share the answer right now, I do want to share what happened since that fateful day:
Well, not nothing. Actually, a lot of things happened.
At first, I dove headfirst into this project. But after failing twelve times to get the very first step of this journey right, I started to get distracted with other projects.
I focused on the Workshop At Home launch. I did a lot of client design work and I worked on the hotel branding project. I did dozens of business consults. I prepped for the podcast launch.
I got so busy with everything else that stalling on the gut-led project became “understandable.” And in turn, this created Resistance to the project as a whole.
Of course, I didn’t see it that way at the time. While I was working on all of these different aspects of my career I told myself that I “didn’t have time” for the project my gut called me to do.
Meanwhile, as the prospect of moving cross-country became a possibility, I became obsessed with the idea of shifting gears there.
New city + new home = new career, right?
But as you know, Seattle didn’t happen.
Instead, I stayed in Chicago and implemented my “Seattle changes” here. I started eating healthier (no more TJ’s Mac and Cheese everyday for lunch), simplified my friendships, exfoliated unnecessary clutter, and lived like I wanted to in Seattle.
But I still didn’t make the project my number one career priority.
As I delayed my progress on the project last week, however, things started to unravel. It finally got to the point where I felt miserable.
Not exactly depressed… just very down. I could see myself making all of the superficial changes that I wanted to make with the Seattle move, but deep down they were meaningless if I continued to stall on the real issue: not doing what I am called to do.
So finally, I picked the project back up. Just a little each day. As long as I worked on it to some degree, I felt better.
But as I read Turning Pro this morning, Mr. Pressfield hit a nerve.
Rather than make sure I spend a few hours a day on what I am meant to do, I center my days around business consulting sessions.
At first I told myself I needed to do this “for the income.” But really, that’s not the case. The Intention Sessions (which align with my project perfectly), hotel design work, and home design work provide ample income. And if necessary, we can tighten our budget for the time being.
I also feared that if I dropped the business consulting options I would be disappointing those who want to work with me. People I could help.
I wondered if people would think I was going off the deep end. I’ve learned over the last few months that people perceive me as a ‘business person who sometimes talks about life stuff’ — without the business advice, will they see what I do on the life side as valuable?
And the most insidious fear of all was that I might not be good enough at the thing my gut told me to do.
But today I’ve reached a breaking point. I know that if I delay on this project any further I will feel more miserable every day. I cannot keep caving to excuses and rationalizations any longer.
Going forward (but perhaps not forever), I will no longer offer business consulting sessions. Those who have reached out to me already or have sessions on the calendar are still welcome to work with me. For those who are new, the Workshop At Home serves as a powerful course with tons of information for new business owners, and Wish I Knew offers insights for small business owners on a variety of topics.
With the upcoming holidays, I am postponing the podcast launch until January, too.
In the meantime, I am shifting my focus to my project first and foremost. I have a self-selected deadline to have the first milestone of this project completed by January 1st.
Thank you so much for following me on this journey. Your continued support and encouragement on this winding road means a lot to me, and the minute I can share more details about this project, I will!