I’m in the in-between place and I am finding that it is really hard to balance everything. Working a full time job and trying to follow your purpose and dreams at the same time is not easy! Almost every single day I wake up and wish I could just put in my 2 week notice at work and move on to “real” life. I feel like I am wasting so much time and especially energy on a job that I don’t believe in at all. It is hard for me to do work that I don’t believe in. Some people can just go to their job and work and do whatever needs to be done (even if it is to design an ad for a greyhound dog track) and then just go home and never think about it. Not me. I have to believe in it because when I do something I do it completely and with my whole heart. I just can’t half-ass anything. I couldn’t even do that as a kid. My heart and passion for the human element in every single thing I do just overrides my ability to be mediocre. I know its all dramatic and soap-opera-like but I honestly wouldn’t want to be any other way.
Of course i know i have the option of just jumping ship. you always have a choice to be in any working situation (even if you feel like you don’t). But is that the best option for me? I am not bringing in any money on the side yet. I am still working on my plan (more about that next week). But here is what I DO know… I do know that the things I need will be provided at the right time and place to move me further into my dreams. I do know that if I keep at it and stay focused on what I know to be true and believe in I will remain in my purpose and keep moving toward my dreams. And I do know that I will continue taking small steps in the direction I want to go because you can’t get anywhere without first being where you are.
Thanks for continuing to go on this journey with me. Have any of you experienced this place I am in now…wanting to quit your (life sucking) day job so badly but not being in the place to do so yet? I would love to hear how you handled it. Please share!!
P.S. I am almost finished reading the book Linchpin by Seth Godin. AMAZING book! I highly recommend it if you are in the business of following your dreams.