First I want to thank everyone for the wonderful and encouraging comments that you took the time to leave on last weeks post. I had no idea what to expect when I put myself out there and I was completely blown away by the warm reception. A million thank yous go out to each one of you!!
So the truth is, after the response from last weeks post I kind of freaked out. I started to put a ton of pressure on myself and for the life of me couldn’t figure out what to write about next. I kind of felt like it needed to be profound and life changing and I also want to make sure that what I am writing about is actually what is happening as I follow my dreams. But honestly, this week wasn’t profound and life changing.
A little story:
It’s kind of funny what happened first, after the wonderful response I received from all of you I decided I absolutely MUST have a beautiful office space to birth my genius in. I mean, that’s the way it is supposed to be for successful creative people, right? There are tons of groups dedicated to beautiful office spaces and studios on Flickr, there is even a magazine called “Where Women Create” that displays the perfectly messy and beautiful spaces that creative women work in every day. In my head, if I was going to consider myself successful and on my way to my dreams, my office MUST match that mission. Um…ok. First problem, to have a beautiful office you have to be able to buy beautiful things…or have beautiful things to start with…or have ugly things that you can turn into beautiful things. Well, there isn’t much money in my bank account so buying an entirely new office was out of the question, and I certainly didn’t have beautiful office things to work with (even though it sometimes seems like creative folks are birthed with beautiful things from the start) so I decided to go with the latter option…turn my ugly things into beautiful things. I decided that I would attempt to paint my ugly brown desk (made of fiberboard).
Bad idea!! After hours of spray painting 3 different desk sections in the Florida wind, I realized it just wasn’t going to happen. I ended up with a hideous looking desk in 3 TOTALLY DIFFERENT COLORS (in the middle of painting the desk white I changed my mind and tried blue)! And then when I barely touched it the paint peeled right off. It just wasn’t possible for me to make this ugly thing beautiful (someone with more patience, probably so, but not me). So off to Ikea I went happy for an excuse to spend my very limited $40 budget. Honestly, at that point, anything would have been better than a 3-colored-paint-scratched-fiberboard monstrosity.
The result still isn’t impressively beautiful but it totally works for me. It doesn’t look like a photo you would find in a cool Flickr group or in a magazine but I really love it.
So then, in the middle of the desk painting fiasco, my parents called to let me know that they would be coming to town to visit for a few days. The good thing is that I got to hang with my mom and dad and eat lots of good food and explore the city that is still so new to me. We had a lot of fun. The not so good thing is that nothing profound happened this week for me to share with all of you.
So as I was dwelling on (uh..obsessing on) ideas for today’s post it dawned on me….you are here reading this because you want to share this experience with me…authentically. How on earth could I forget that even for a moment? Then I realized that you might be interested in what I have done and the events that occurred that brought me to this point today.
The concept of making some serious changes in my life began around this time last year. I was really unhappy with my job and the tiny town that I lived and, though I was working in a creative position as a graphic designer, I hadn’t actually done anything creative, on my own, in a really long time. So I signed up for an online craft class with artists and bloggers Elsie Flannagin and Rachel Denbow. This class totally rocked my world. For $60 we had access to an online blog where 30 project tutorials were posted in 60 days. To document my creations and to share them with my new online classmates I started a blog. I got a lot of positive feedback and once the class was over I decided I didn’t want to stop. I signed up for 4 more online classes. Blogging Your Way with Holly Decor, Unravelling with Susannah Conway, In the Fish Bowl with Marisa Haedike and Creative Pathways with Deb Owens. I became a little obsessive with the classes maybe, but I blogged about the things that I learned and I continued to work on creative art projects in my spare time. I began to see that people really liked a lot of my work and that I really enjoyed connecting with people through writing on my blog. And funny enough, people liked reading what I had to say, I gained quite a few followers in a pretty short time.
A couple of months later, right as my boyfriend and i decided to move to a new state for him to go back to school, I purchased a program by Christine Kane called Uplevel Your Life. It was expensive (i just made my last payment yesterday) but it was SO worth it. This course taught me that I really needed to start changing how I was being before starting to change what I was doing. It taught me the importance of self-care and of not playing small. It taught me how vital it really is to my health and happiness to follow my dreams and live within my purpose.
So two months ago I hired a life coach, I hired a nutritionist, and I began an intense physical boot camp training class. At this point you may be wondering how I am paying for all of this stuff, right? The truth is that most of these things are being put on credit cards. Now I am not recommending that anyone should go into debt (Suzy Orman’s voice is now screaming in my ear), it has to be a decision you alone are comfortable with. But I really want to share the truth with you, the honest experiences that I have had and am having right now.
Also around this time I discovered the Make Under My Life blog and subscribed to the RSS feed. I left a comment one day not too long ago and Jess and I began corresponding with each other. And that brings me to today.
Its funny how signing up for one class started an entire chain reaction to follow my dreams. I guess you never, ever know what will be the spark that lights the fire!
I’ll see you guys next week! I started the online business class on Monday so hopefully I will have stuff I can share about that.
If you made it to the end, and you’re not my mom, I think you are pretty cool! Thank you so much for reading! If you have any questions or want to correspond with me one-on-one feel free to email me ashleyinzer (at) g mail (dot) com.