For those casual readers who have followed Makeunder for the past three months or just found my site today, it’s unclear how much of ‘me’ is apparent on these pages.
Why I write so diligently on Makeunder My Life while juggling my jewelry business, social life, boyfriend, and enjoying Chicago may be kind of fuzzy. If this site was meant exclusively as an advertising tool, I would have kept the old Blogger Jess LC site. But that’s not why I write.
Reader: “So, Jess, why do you write about making under your life?”
Jess: “Great question.”
The answer requires a long story which I intend to detail, bit by bit, over the next few weeks (probably on the weekends since I’m not sure how many people actually want to know). But the long story ends with, “In conclusion, if I wanted to create someone to speak about making under in this world, I know without a doubt that I would have given them my life’s experiences and tools.”
What that basically means is though I have been a jewelry designer for the last nine years, I genuinely feel in the depths of my gut, that I am put on this Earth to talk about living an intentional life. This is my passion, my purpose. This blog happens to be the easiest way to begin that journey. Now. But with this mission comes some interesting emotions.
Sometimes I feel elated when unbelievable connections happen and help build awareness about making under. And other times (especially since the recession) it feels that despite all my work on Jess LC or Makeunder the future is uncertain and my huge leaps of faith (spiritually and financially) may be not enough to turn this into a lasting career that will support a family, offer stability, and help people improve their lives. I feel like crying, “I took the leap, I did the whole follow your passion and purpose thing- why don’t I see a payoff?”
Thursday I was feeling those gloomier emotions. Until… I stumbled upon a site called TED and a speech given by Elizabeth Gilbert of Eat, Pray, Love. Being a self-proclaimed and personality test certified “perfectionist and performer,” I have high expectations for my work and myself. Gilbert’s speech offered a solution to help diffuse the pressures I feel. Something inside me was released. My hope is that her proposed paradigm will help me continue to dull my intermittent nagging doubts and worries.
For at least a few hours.
And if my story is similar to your own, check out Gilbert’s speech. I hope you enjoy it.