For a long while, my personal life was going great, but I was resistant towards my purpose in my career (helping people find their purpose).
I had the hardest time giving myself the permission to own my gift. Which is supremely amusing considering the fact that I was perpetually giving my business clients the permission to accept and celebrate their own purposes in their businesses.
For some reason I could not do the same for myself.
Then finally, after weeks of wrestling with every flawed egoic reason that my brain could think of to avoid honoring this gift, I simply surrendered. I stopped fighting my purpose, wrote my manifesto of my beliefs about purpose in the small business world, and shifted my services to better support and communicate my perspective on purpose-based business.
The results have been astounding.
When I was resistant towards owning my purpose, while knowing deep down it was there, business slowed considerably. Once I stopped hiding it and simply put it out there, clients and opportunities started appearing at a higher pace than ever before.
It feels effortless. I get to be “me” and do what comes naturally.
For a week or two, I felt a strong sense of peace about life and business.
However, a week and a half ago, a personal matter came to light which has turned parts of my personal life upside down.
Isn’t it funny how one thing can cause friction and the moment the friction is removed, another area of our life can change on a dime?
Thankfully, this matter is not health related, and I have a strong hope that this situation, though difficult, will turn out for the best.
Because this matter involves more than just myself, I cannot share the details. But I hope one day to be able to discuss this more openly in hopes that it may encourage others in similar situations.
For now, I just know that I’m experiencing one heck of a growth spurt.
Though sometimes I feel like crying out, “when will I ever be done growing?” I realize that if I was truly “done,” I’d stay where I am.
If I was done growing before I owned my purpose in business, I’d stay stuck helping people, but never truly sharing my real gift.
If I was doing growing before this personal matter came to light, I’d feel “happy” day-to-day, without having the chance to dramatically deepen a meaningful relationship.
So though these challenges have been difficult to process while going about my daily life and working on the upcoming projects that I’m excited to share, life is better this way.
Like many intentional choices, it is not “easy,” but it is worth it.