To be honest, the past few weeks have been a bit rough for me. No need to worry too much, but let’s just say that I’ve been struggling to find life balance lately. In fact, things are good overwhelmingly great. Which in itself brings a whole new set of lessons.
I feel like the gratitude I’ve felt in the past has equaled the blessings I’ve had in my life. It looked something like this:
Amount of Gratitude = Amount of Blessings
But recently I feel like this:
Amount of Gratitude < Amount of Blessings
This is strange, unfamiliar territory. I’m learning how to grow my gratitude to fit the overflowing of blessings. I’ve even wondered if there is a limit to gratitude that can be felt at any one time. I feel like I’m at capacity, I’m 100% grateful. And yet that still doesn’t seem to encompass or do justice to the (seemingly) 150% of blessings in my life. I’m not sure if this is making sense, but it’s the best way I can describe it.
Due to the fact that I’m so overwhelmed by the goodness in my life at the moment, I’ve been feeling overwhelmed in other areas of my life in not-so-good ways. I’ve been eating more unconsciously, spending slightly unaware, and there are dozens of thoughts – both negative and positive – swirling inside my brain. This thought tornado has left me unsettled, uncomfortable, and again – feeling overwhelmed.
Because of all of this anxiety this morning, I decided to make some worry flashcards to stop my spinning mind. The flashcards paired with the quote (above) from Keira were amazing in helping me see what needed to be done.
I first began sharing my blessings with others so that they can flow to me and also through me. I think the blessings are kind of like a river and I don’t want to be the dam that stops the current. I also need to let go of a lot of negative thoughts which are weighing me down.
By performing this “mind makeunder,” I think I’ll find an equilibrium.
Thanks for listening.