Six Month Update
December 1st marked my six month anniversary as a full-time entrepreneur. Did you hear that popping noise? That was my bottle of champagne ; )
I feel like this is quite a milestone, and yet, it’s only the beginning. It has been the beginning of what I hope will be a long and prosperous career, a beginning of asserting who I am, and a beginning of healing and hope.
When I left my job at the end of May, I was totally sure that this was the right choice and confident in what would happen next. I believed that everything would fall into place. I had amazing opportunities right out of the gate – features on large blogs, interviews and new clients started coming in. It was a whirlwind of excitement and adrenaline. And then the buzz of my new business began to wear off and I understood all those entrepreneurs who say “I never thought it would be this hard.”
It’s been damn hard. I bounce between exhilarating days and scary ones. One week everything is amazing and the next week I’m wondering what the hell I got myself into. I never know when the next client opportunity will come along or if my blog readers will come back. I wonder if this is sustainable and when it will get easier. It’s terrifying.
But it’s been so. worth. it.
No more getting up in the dark to commute for two hours in the rain. No more sitting in a cubicle wondering when my life was going to start. Or crying in the bathroom stall at work. Asking myself if this is all there was.
Instead, I’m in control of my own work, my business, and my future. Every day I get to decide what the company priorities are, how I work, and what happens next. Of course, with this power comes responsibility, as they say. The hard work has just begun, but so have the rewards.
I’ve learned more about my dreams, what I really want. I’ve screwed up. I’ve dropped the ball but then learned from my mistakes. And it’s time now to keep moving forward. I have more big dreams and they aren’t going to happen all by themselves. Six months ago I went after them and I’m going to keep going after them. I didn’t like my life. I didn’t like my career. So I did something about it and followed my heart. And to be honest, I still can’t believe I had the guts! But I did, and I do, and the future looks bright. Not all smooth sailing, of course, but worth it.
To the next six months!