I hope you had a great weekend! On the way home from Kalamazoo, Michigan yesterday, I read a great article about Blake Mycoskie, the founder of Toms Shoes in Inc. Magazine. He mentioned that he writes letters to his employees telling them about his travels and what he is working on and thinking about. And I thought this might be a great idea to try here on MML. So for the next few weeks I’m going to do a “test pilot” like they do on television, seeing if there is interest in this kind of series on MML. I plan to write it as though it’s a letter to a good friend (because let’s face it, you are all good friends) about what’s going on in my life and what I’ve been thinking about lately.
As you may have noticed, I am playing with the format and content here on MML. I want to try new things; to see what is working and what can be even better. It’s kind of like throwing spaghetti at a wall and seeing what sticks. Based on feedback in comments, tweets, and emails, I will know what content is sticky. So chime in and let me know!
Makeunder My Week: June, 28th, 2010
Today I’m just getting back to work after a long weekend with good girlfriends from college. It was great to catch up with them and have some much needed girl time. We went to the beach (something I haven’t done in several years, despite living next to Chicago’s beaches), drank wine, and talked a lot about our futures. What became apparent to us all is that for the first time, we have absolutely no idea what the next year will be like. In fact, I personally have no idea what my life has in store past September 1st, when I move to my new apartment.
Well, that’s not completely true. I am excited to say that last week I was nominated to receive a Rising Star Award by the Fashion Group International in Chicago. And on September 16th, I will be at an event for this award. But other than that, I have no clue what my life will be like.
And as you all know, I like to plan. I faithfully submitted my Future Letter to Myself in January outlining my life for 2010– and I feel like Life took a big pink eraser and wiped the last four months clean. Given this change is coming so late in the year, I’ve decided to keep the slate blank. I’m not going to pencil in an impromptu future. I’m going to see what happens when I let Life fill in the pages. Then come January, 2011, I will reconnect and write a new future letter. In the meantime, I’m choosing to have faith that everything is working out to create an even bigger future than the one I imagined seven months ago.
Another thing I’ve been thinking about lately is life after my obsession with weight. In the past few weeks I have been thrilled at the freedom that life without focus on eating provides. I’ve also been shocked to find myself effortlessly within the weight range I so desperately tried to reach while letting my ego control my food consumption. But it hasn’t been so pleasant realizing that my life itself, devoid of negative thoughts about my thighs, is not otherwise any different than it was before. I get upset just as often, I still struggle with other aspects of my life just as much, I actually cry more often now that I’m not distracting myself with calorie or point counting. When I feel an emotion, it seems to hit me just a bit harder now that there is no weight obsession to distract me from the pain.
And I think this is an important realization for me. Life isn’t about reaching a Utopia which is devoid of ego or strife, it’s about letting each emotional storm come and go without holding on too long or avoiding the rain altogether. My life will never be perfect, but I am now capable of dealing with the imperfections face to face.
On the jewelry front, I’m excited to say that this week I am planning the lookbook for the fall paisley collection. I’m thinking about the theme being “The Best Fall Day Ever in Chicago” which will include the farmer’s market and possibly a caramel apple. You can’t go wrong with a caramel apple in September.
Have a great day,