(Sorry, guys! I forgot to add the first paragraph of the post this morning (below). – Jess!)
First of all, I want to say thanks for all your support each and every week – I seriously can’t tell you how much it helps reading your comments!!Â I’m glad you’ve been following me through this.Â A lot has happened this week – picked my logo & colors (yay!) – but today’s post is more personal.Â I’ve had the question “to quit or not to quit my day job” on my mind for awhile now.Â But to be able to really answer that question, as well as share this journey, I think I need to talk about one of my biggest supporters – my mom.Â She’s been my biggest cheerleader always – no matter what crazy ideas I’ve had – she’s always been behind me 100%.Â I’m an only child so it really was just my mom and me growing up.Â She’s my role model, my cheerleader and my best friend.Â And I lost her 3 years ago to pancreatic cancer when she was only 62.
My mom was an amazing person…..and of course I say this with no bias!Â But honestly she was the warmest & most loving person – someone who just liked you for who you are.Â And honestly, it’s hard to write about because I just can’t put in words how much she means to me and how lucky I was to have her for a mom.Â She’s the strongest person I’ve ever known.Â It still amazes me to this day that she was a single parent my whole life, had no college degree & somehow through her perseverance was able to raise a child by herself, buy a house and become such a respected employee of the American Heart Association.Â (I would always say to her that it amazed me she could buy a house by herself while having a small child…..when I couldn’t seem to do it married with no children!!Â I mean, how did she do it?!)
She’s such a huge part of who I am, what’s brought me here to this point – that it’s something I needed to share.Â Especially since most days, I wish she could be here cheering me on.Â Or just being that “mom” safety net for me – the one where if I fail, I can run back home.Â It’s hard being an only child having lost my parent…especially one who was a huge part of my life (can’t tell you how much I wish I could just run over her house like I used to and just talk about books or life – or to just see her face light up the way it would when she would see me – it was like the warmest hug!)
And I know, 100% with all my heart, that she would be so happy that I’m taking this leap and pursuing my dream of owning my own store.Â Since I was little, she heard me go on and on (and on and on!) about wanting to start my own business.Â And being the typical mom, nothing made her happier than seeing me happy.Â She encouraged me year after year to pursue my dreams.Â She was the kind of mom that even if I told her, right now, that I decided I wanted to be President (with no political background whatsoever, mind you), she’d be saying “ok, what do you need me to do”!
Once I lost her, I realized that life is so short – I would hate to look back and regret having never given my all to my dream. And she wouldn’t want me to be toiling away in misery at a job I hate.Â She’d want me to jump, feet first, into this adventure – she wouldn’t even bat an eye at this.Â I’m lucky that I found my own personal cheerleader – my hubby -who’s answer to all my “what if’s” is such a simple and powerful statement:Â “it’s just money, we have plenty of time to make that”.Â Â So that’s where I’m coming from when I think of the answer to “quit or not quit my day job”.Â Even though I’m freaking out and scared down to my little toes – I’m taking the leap – I just gave my notice at work!Â And I like to think that my mom is smiling right now.